Closing out the first month (June 2010), and moving forward…
July 13, 2010: Watched another one of Michelle Phan’s latest makeup videos – It’s amazing how effortless, yet effective, she makes it look. (sigh…)
(Oh, yeah – I still follow Michelle Phan – there’s a lot of useful information from her videos. Now, if only I had the budget for makeup, and the skills to get my face together in less than 30 minutes. 😛 )
I opened my Facebook account on June 3, 2010. I’m going to be posting semi-regularly scheduled post updates to fill in the gaps between now and then, since Facebook is my main home, and I’ve been neglecting my home here.
Did I mention I like being pampered? Massages (even those chairs with the “magic fingers” – put in me one for more than 30 minutes, and I will meow like the kitty that I am. =^_^= ), manicures, a trip to the hair salon (Hi, Mario – Thanks for taking care of me today! ^_^; ), and I’m sure there’s more.
I’m eager to have a makeover, probably at MAC or Sephora, or somewhere…
And now, for those who just joined us – I’m going to attempt to explain what my Facebook is all about?
Am I full-time?: No, and it may be quite some time – There’s a long journey ahead of me, and I’m still figuring things out. What types of photos do I post?: Mostly me looking cute, or as formal as I can get, usually blending in with every other girl out there. I’ll leave the more daring flights of fantasy for when I slim down. I’d say I’ve got over 100 pounds to go, and I am managing about 3 pounds a week weight loss on average, after about five weeks back on track with Weight Watchers. Some of your posts don’t seem to make sense!: It happens. I usually post whatever’s on my mind, and a lot of my posts are rather me-centric. Are you out to anyone?: A handful of friends, including those I told, and those who found me from my “boy” Facebook. (No, I’m not telling you who it is. ^_^;) Have you done any risque photos?: Yes, but not everyone get to see them. Don’t ask. You will know when you’re in the clique. ^_^;
What’s with the music, movie clips, and video/computer game posts?: Hey, I’m a gamergirl, sort of, and I have my pop culture loves. I’m still easily impressionable! ^_^; Why do you follow the stereotypical expectations of liking anime and Hello Kitty?: Hey – I was an anime fan even when I was all the way in the closet, (cosplay kind of helped me prepare for getting out!) and Hello Kitty was because I’m making up for the childhood I didn’t get. (I envied my sis, and other girls, even grown-ups who still like Sanrio stuff. I have a small collection, but my anime VHS tape and DVD — and laserdiscs — are taking up more room than I have shelf space for!)
Did you start out dressing up as a fetish?: (*sigh*) Yes… but the important thing is that it is not the sole reason.
Have you been out in public?: Several times, since my first few steps out in early October 2010 – I usually get out about 2-4 times a month, sometimes more, depending on week to week. Do you see yourself living full-time eventually?: Most likely, yes… But life is an adventure, and I’m trying to make the most of that adventure, and where it takes me, and hopefully not struggling and sacrificing too much along the way.
With a brief interlude, and also because I passed the 40,000 total view mark in just under 13 months on Flickr, and after a stream-of-consciousness post hammered out within 15 minutes, at Kara’s suggestion, I’m resuming my post series, where I’m highlighting and thanking some of the people who have played a significant part in my emergence online, and in real life. My journey is still continuing; My story is still being written, and everyone here, and elsewhere, is a part of it.
Just a few people out there I’d like to acknowledge. I may not get to everyone this time around, but I value everyone who I’ve made the effort to connect with, and those who have friended me back as well. We need friends, especially in our journey. We are not autonomous beings, no matter what we’re told by the world around us.
It hasn’t been easy for me, even when I’m not being Julie Anne. Even now, I’m still hesitant to keep in contact with the few friends in the trans community I have met over Flickr. I’m still trying to work on not overthinking and worrying what kind of impression I’ll make on them. I guess that’s part of what keeps me in my own closet. It’s a weakness I acknowledge, and one I know I will have to work on.
For those I have met, I haven’t forgotten about any of you. I will get around to getting back in touch with you. I’m just sorting things out, as always.
In the meantime, here’s a video from Lady Vixion on YouTube, that just seemed to click with me, on the importance of making friends (and face to face contact with same) in the trans community – Enjoy!
(video window rescaled to not break layouts on 1024-pixel width screens, like my old notebook and my new netbook.)
I have a Facebook of my own, of course, as part of my strategy to be all over the place online as Julie Anne. ^_^;
Today, I’ve achieved a bit of happiness, or at least it’s reason to make me laugh with contentment. I’m winding up a discussion with a friend of mine from Australia, as she’s acquiring a MacBook Pro. Between herself, myself, and the others joining in on the thread, there’s a lot of computer talk, and of course, the perceived image of Mac users. (Hey, she’s getting it for her graphic design job!)
I’m taking it as a compliment from one of the folks, who stated, “…is it wrong that I’m a little turned on by all the XXs talking OSs and hardware?” ^_^;
Now, if only I can pass in person, as well as online. ^_^;
Just Your Average Tour-De-Force Renaissance Geek Girl ^_-;