You have no idea how happy this makes me. ^_^;
Vindication is wonderful.
Catching up again, as always – Let’s start out with one of my most recent events, shall we?
March 26, 2011 was my first time out shopping as myself, to a private after-hours shopping event, hosted by Dress Barn, and members of the River City Gems, the TG/CD group in Sacramento, CA, that I’m a member of.
To tell you the truth, even now, I’m deathly afraid of going out as Julie Anne to public places, especially by myself – Mainly for fear of getting “read”. (I guess I just have to assume it’s going to happen, and work hard on not calling too much attention to myself, because, inevitably, I’m going to have to prepare myself for the eventuality of going out in public, not in the company of other TG folks.) – Most of my shopping up to this point, I’ve done in boy-mode. Perhaps I’m making too big of a deal of this than I really should. It seem, the more I get out there, and the more I research, and the more people I talk to, a lot of mainstream retail places, primarily Dress Barn, Lane Bryant, Sephora, MAC, and a few other places are TG-friendly, usually mandated by a company-wide policy.
Maybe it’s a good thing, because people like us, especially those of us who are part-time girls, or who are just beginning to take the steps to transition, are benefiting the U.S. economy — twice! ^_^;
Hopefully I’ll be able to collect my thoughts, and detail my entire weekend here. For now, I give you the post I sent to the River City Gems group on Yahoo! about an hour ago:
“(Be warned – this is a long post. I like to write, as most of you will find out. ^_^; )
I wanted to start off, by expressing my thanks to the staff of the Red Lion Hotel, and, of course, the staff and officers of the River City Gems for making my first time out (At a Gems event, or in public, for that matter), something very special to me, something that I will remember every day for the rest of my life.
Yes, I’m the (somewhat shy) new girl who showed up in the little black dress, the long black gloves, managing not to fall while teetering and getting around in 3.5” heels, the one who stood up when they asked any of the girls if it was their first time out, and their first Gems event. Thank you for welcoming and accepting me, for putting on a wonderful night of socializing, entertainment, and fun, and for making me feel welcome.
I’m probably going to catch hell for this, but I have to get this off my chest. I’ve struggled with this for about the past 24 hours.
A friend of mine came up with a theory why I manifest as Julie Anne, citing that I was created as a means to give myself an identity independent from my male alter-ego, and therefore independent from my mother, and if I told her about this side of me, I would lose the desire to continue doing this.
I love it when a plan I have is realized and completed! This marks the first time I’ve shown off a pair of striped tights I’ve had for a year, along with a couple more somewhat provocative photos in the chain. I’d say I’m getting a bit more courageous.
Enjoy! (Note: A couple of the pictures are moderate-flagged. Can’t be too careful, but I think they’re relatively tame. I will admit I do have a bit of an exhibitionist side to me. ^_-;)
Hugs and kisses,
— Julie Anne
I’ve been spending the last couple hours fully dressed up, having some time to myself once again. Allow me to indulge this one adventure in a somewhat “undisclosed location.” ^_^;
I acquired a black jersey racerback maxi-dress over the weekend, and I’m wearing it today, complete with black pantyhose, black 3.5 inch high heels, and my favorite wig, makeup, and jewelry. I’m spending a few hours relaxing, watching afternoon TV (I had a few moments in tears while watching some afternoon talk shows. ^_^;) and generally feeling so relaxed and comfortable.