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#109 – OMG, Julie Can Draw! (OMG, Did She Draw Who I Thought She Drew?)

Happy Birthday, dj bridget!

An original sketch I did for the incredibly talented (but not quite as visible over the internet as she was about a decade earlier) dj bridget, for her birthday this past Thursday.

The toughest part, other than going for a realistic interpretation of one of her photos, was choosing which photo out of hundreds to base the sketch off of.

I stumbled across her Flickr (It’s gone now ;_; ) in June of 2009, and, that was the “tipping point” that made me realize I was lying to myself by continuing to deny an important part of myself… That I am transgender, and twenty-seven years of hiding was essentially only a partial existence, and essentially “living death” for me.

I’ve come out to a few, I’m getting out in public, either with other girls, close friends, or on my own, and I’ve made quite a bit of progress in about 18 months.

But, if things didn’t happen, or I didn’t get curious back in the summer of 2009, I’d probably still be in hiding.

Who knows what my life would be like if I came to my senses a decade earlier.

This is only a small way I know of of saying “thanks” to someone who played a small, yet significant part in my ongoing rebirth. ^_^

#107 – Everytime You Go Away (You Take A Piece Of Me With You)

(#107 in a limited-edition series! Collect them all – Yes, I used a Paul Young song title for the title of this post… Daryl Hall wrote it, Hall and Oates performed it before Paul Young covered it)

This is mirrored from a post I just send out on my Facebook (a public-viewable post) – and is being mirrored to PINKessence as well.

For every person on here who removed their Facebok account, and leaves their circle, I have to ask myself “Was our friendship real?” – “Are we all just easily discardable?”

And yes, I am aware of this saying:
“When people walk away from you, let them go. Your destiny is never tied to anyone who leaves you, and it doesn’t mean they’re bad people. It just means that their part in your story is over.”
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#106 – Quick Update (Back Out Of The Rabbit Hole For A Bit)

(#106 for those keeping track. ^_^; )

I never did mention that I saw Jack & Jill at a local theater – as myself. (Not giving a damn what others thought of me.) I had fun, and never “broke character” the whole time through. (The film started a bit slow, but picked up – I’d say it’s up there, at least a somewhere behind The Wedding Singer – I never did bother to see The Waterboy, or Happy Gilmore, Big Daddy, or even 50 First Dates. – I saw Punch-Drunk Love when it came out years ago, but that was a film directed by one of my favorite directors (love him or hate him), P.T. Anderson. (Boogie Nights, Magnolia, There Will Be Blood)

And, I just realized, as I was getting my outfit ready for this coming Saturday (Going to the Super Toy Show in San Jose!), that it’s the exact same outfit I wore to the movies, and to the mall beforehand. (Including dinner at BJ’s – another successful night out as myself, including small talk with one of the ladies showing me to my booth. ^_^; )

Photo catch-up coming soon from my exciting (at least for me) November, including a lot of me time. ^_^;

I am continuing to smile, even in tough times – I will not be denied, forced back into the closet, or give up fighting for what I want – the chance to be out on my own, as myself, living my life, and reinventing myself as the person I was meant to be.

#105 – TDOR 2011 Epilogue – What Happened After…

(#105 in a series – This one was originally posted at Facebook – Entry here (May not work) – The Merc, of course, is The Mercantile Saloon on 20th and L streets in midtown Sacramento’s “Lavender Heights” area (Just one of many gay bars) – Cheap, strong drinks, and an interesting place where you’re guaranteed to see a few tgirls from time to time. ^_^; )

Fun stuff at The Merc near the end of the night. Two honest-to-god 3rd generation goths, having a mini-rave to Lady GaGa’s “Judas” on the jukebox.

One of them, a guy 20 years younger than I (Old enough to be my son), comes over to me, and we talk… about music, why Faces is a better place to party at than The Merc (Which is mainly good for cheap, strong drinks.)

He asked me if I was a nun. He figured out I was a tgirl. He was cool with it. He came up from South Central L.A.

We exchanged phone numbers. ^_^;

#104 – The (not-so) Short Version of Why Sunday Was A “Dead Julie Anne Day”

(Post 104 in a continuing series – Stay Tuned, recaps will return, but first, this somewhat serious entry.)

1. Totally exhausted from 2 days’ of 5 hours’ sleep on average, as well as two trips to and from the Bay Area (Friday in San Jose, Saturday in Burlingame.)

2. Bummed out from the double-whammy of not going to YaoiCon as myself (in boy-mode this year.), seeing others dressed up in goth/raver/cyber, crossplay, or other cute attire — As well as finding out that YaoiCon is moving to Los Angeles in 2012.

3. Impending need to get new insurance, in the wake of no more COBRA due to no more previous employer (shut down operations at end of September).
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#103 – After San Francisco Pride 2011 (July)

(What Happened To 102?) – There are no fractional posts – This is the 103rd, and posts are not necessarily numbered. The site is not dead, in fact, I’ve picked up a blog follower – Large Blooming Flower – Expect to be added!

Anyway. July 2011: Posting the photos and blogs from San Francisco Pride (Still one of my best times out I’ve had in like…. forever.) – Discovering the joys of staying connected on the go, whether at Starbucks, or my local mall, off the wi-fi on my netbook, and on my Android phone. I saw Super 8 at the theatre, and enjoyed it! I also saw the best fireworks show for free. (From the skies over my own driveway – though they were illegal, as noted by the appearance of helicopters criss-crossing the skies over my neighborhood.) – I also continued feeding my Criminal Minds habit (For those who know me well enough, or follow my Facebook posts, Penelope Garcia is my hero, and my role model. ^_^; Did I mention I own the first five seasons on DVD? )
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#101 – The Short List Since June…

Quite a few outings, even breaking the “Golden Rule” about not going about dressed up in one’s own hometown. (Threw that part of the “rulebook” out the window… heh heh heh…)

There’s also the usual monthly trips up to Sacramento for socials with the River City Gems, and nightcaps in Midtown/Lavender Heights after some of those socials.

The Luau Party with the Gems was an incredible experience, especially my first time among others in a one-piece swimsuit… ^_^; (And peep-toe wedges, and a cute beach hat..) – I even waded about in the pool and played volleyball with some of the other girls! ^_^;

My birthday was interesting – If I didn’t do any special outings, all my friends online, on both of my Facebook accounts, sent me birthday greetings… I tell you, it got me all choked up… Getting a tasty chocolate cupcake at the August Gems social, and a card signed by some of the girls with the Gems brought tears to my eyes… ^_^; (But I’ll always be eternally young-at-heart. ^_-; )

September, while not quite cooling down as much as I wanted, brought a few more outings, and some me-time in town, and the return to school, as I get my geek girl credentials for real! – It also ended with my return to River City Sparkle, where I pulled out as many of the stops as I could, and had a good time, and got out as myself among the “normal folk” as well! ^_^;

This month’s doing quite well, with my first trip up to Sacramento to see “Repo! The Genetic Opera”, and a showing of Rocky Horror Picture show here in my hometown towards the end of the week. (Debating whether I’ll have some local friends I know come with me, and if I’ll dust off the little black dress for the show!)

I’ll go into more depth on what I’ve been doing over the last few months in the next few posts… Stay tuned! **huggs**

#100 (What’s So Special About It, Anyway?)

… Actually, a lot, in fact, so much, that instead of making one big, long post that will probably take me about an hour or more to put together, I’m going to go with a series of little posts, updating and bring people up to speed on what my world’s been like since the end of June, 2011 through now.

Yes, this is blog post #100 – 100 is a special anniversary (and usually something ground-shaking, as in episode #100 of Criminal Minds)

The bad news is, I’m still out of work, and my COBRA benefits have been yanked out from under me three months early, thanks to my previous employer shutting down operations completely.

The good news is, I’m continuing to take small (though somewhat imperceptible) steps to get my life reorganized, and of course, express myself, even if only being a part-time girl, but I am getting out there, at home, at restaurants, the gas station, the mall, the grocery store, wherever I can, blending in, and just being a woman like any other, out in the world.

Stay tuned – I will fill you in, but I wanted to break this “writers’ block,” and just say what I need to say, before things backlog any further than they’ve become.

Yes, I’m alive, I’m somewhat happier than I’ve been in previous months, and I have a general idea of what I need to do — I just need to get out there and to it.
It’s all about staying alive, healthy, active, and focused.

(Oh, I have tales to tell about where I’ve been, and photos to post – Some of them have been posted on Flickr and Facebook, and elsewhere!)

Stay tuned, darlings! ^_^;

#99 – Looking Back: My SF Pride 2011 Weekend — Sunday

(Note: Stop, before you go any further, and read how this all started! Friday’s write-up is here, and Saturday’s adventures are right here. )

Concluding: Sunday started relatively early, as three of us needed to get ready to be out, Loni, as she was in the parade with the River City Gems, one of a contingent of 15 or so lovely ladies in Southern Belle gowns, always a crowd favorite for the last couple years. Joni had to be out on the scene as one of the group monitors. As for myself, I figured I’d be photographing from the sidelines, or marching at the back of the Belles, in my normal attire. (A nice top and one of my new pairs of Dickies Girl college pants, which I picked up on sale at Sears a couple weeks back.)

Sunday: After a quick breakfast at Denny’s (Yet again, since it was in walking distance, and fairly quick.), Loni and I met Tilda and Cheryle as they were catching a taxi to get within a couple blocks of the parade staging area. (Not a small task when you can’t wear a hoop skirt while sitting down in the back seat of a taxi cab.) – The driver said he’d come back for us, but after 15-20 minutes, we gave up and walked eastward, once again, several blocks, with my Android phone, GPS, and Google Maps to the rescue once again.
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#98 – Looking Back: My SF Pride 2011 Weekend — Saturday

(Note: If you’re just tuning in to read this, be sure to read the previous entry, “Looking Back: My SF Pride 2011 Weekend – Friday” to find out what happened on the first day. ^_^; )

Continuing: Saturday was the first full day of my adventures at Pride Weekend in San Francisco last weekend, and it was the best and busiest day of all three, from getting up and getting going for breakfast, all the way to the wee hours of the night, making our way back from a bar and drag show. It was another exciting and wonderful adventure, adding more pages to my ongoing story…
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