This one was sent to me yesterday morning by Gordon, a friend of mine from Flickr. This short entry, one of a series of three from Charlotte, a.k.a. “karmatic1110” on YouTube, really speaks to me, primarily on my fear and apprehension of seeing how far down the rabbit hole I can go, as far as all things Julie Anne are concerned:
I did mention that I’m still somewhat in the closet, and I’ve been out in public about 15 minutes total, not counting two separate outings driving around town (but not getting out of the car), at about an hour total. I still consider myself “Not ready for prime time” as far as voice, mindset, mannerisms, being able to pass, etc., but we’ll talk more about this later, ok?
Ah, Gordon – You do understand me somewhat – Thanks, my friend.
I am "29 and holding," (I refuse to act my age!) I'm a semi-closeted tgirl, and it seems I'm finding a lot of people out there like me. (Just more adventurous, experienced, and so on and so forth.) ^_^; - I guess this *is* my much-celebrated "mid-life crisis."
I used to live in the Dark Center Of The Universe, a.k.a. somewhere in the middle of California. Forgive me if I'm not too generous with details right now. Let's just say that not too many people out there know about me. (Not even close family or friends. I'm nowhere near ready for coming out as of yet.)
'm a "part time" girl, having crossdressed on and off for over 25 years, still semi-closeted, but making gradual progress, especially in the last few years.
For the longest part of my life, it's always been something I've been ashamed of, due to my being caught by my parents quite a few times in my teens, but the urges have never went away. Fortunately, through making contact with others on the internet, and exploring online resources, I've started to come to terms with discovering who I am, and realizing it's not something to be ashamed of, and more importantly, that I'm not alone.
I've made a few contacts and friends out there, and am making progress bit by bit, getting more courageous, but always working on my image, confidence, outfits, and appearance. I still consider myself not quite passable, or ready for prime time, but the important thing is that a door was reopened to me that I thought was closed forever.
I've dedicated the rest of my life to finding out who I am, and learning to love and accept myself, no matter what the outcome. Given enough time and support from others, I'm sure I'll blossom quite well.
My guiding principle is - "It's My Time To Shine."
2 thoughts on “#9 – Just A Couple Quick Videos (Link 1)”
Thank you for posting my video on your blog, and I am glad it helped 🙂
Thank you for posting the video! A friend of mine from Flickr send me the link. Thank you also for being the very first non-spambot to comment here. ^_^; My belated condolences on the loss of your father (I had tears in my eyes when I viewed that vlog – My father is still alive, though it always seems awkward when we spend time together. He doesn’t know, and I don’t know if I can ever tell him that I’ve been dressing up, on and off, for over half my life. Of course, Mom doesn’t know either that I never stopped crossdressing, but I’m sure she probably suspects a thing or two.) I hope things are still going good for you. I’m still working on eventually getting out in public, as I’ve stated here on other posts, and of course, making contact with other people, and of course, coming out to friends I can trust.
Again, thank you for making these series of videos. My journey has barely started, and this site, along with my Flickr space, and all my other online presences, is just a part of it. I don’t know exactly where my journey will take me, but then, it’s not the first time in my life I’ve set out on a journey where I figured out the destination along the way.
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Thank you for posting my video on your blog, and I am glad it helped 🙂
Thank you for posting the video! A friend of mine from Flickr send me the link. Thank you also for being the very first non-spambot to comment here. ^_^; My belated condolences on the loss of your father (I had tears in my eyes when I viewed that vlog – My father is still alive, though it always seems awkward when we spend time together. He doesn’t know, and I don’t know if I can ever tell him that I’ve been dressing up, on and off, for over half my life. Of course, Mom doesn’t know either that I never stopped crossdressing, but I’m sure she probably suspects a thing or two.) I hope things are still going good for you. I’m still working on eventually getting out in public, as I’ve stated here on other posts, and of course, making contact with other people, and of course, coming out to friends I can trust.
Again, thank you for making these series of videos. My journey has barely started, and this site, along with my Flickr space, and all my other online presences, is just a part of it. I don’t know exactly where my journey will take me, but then, it’s not the first time in my life I’ve set out on a journey where I figured out the destination along the way.