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#29 – Collecting My Thoughts, Planning The Next Entry (Or Entries)

I just finished reading through a couple of sites that presented some topics that made me sad, and disillusioned, and again, questioning the road I seem to be travelling.

Diana at Salad Bingo, and Halle at Maintaining the Façade both referenced the writings of a blogger at the Catholic Exchange portal website, where said individual was replying to a Catholic transsexual woman looking for guidance to find her place in the church, only to find a reiteration and statement on the Roman Catholic church’s position on transsexuals in the Catholic church. I’m not even going to dignify Catholic Exchange with a direct link to their article – Go and Google for it if you’re curious.

(For the record, I was born and baptized Catholic, I attended a Catholic high school for three out of my four years in high school, but I was never confirmed, nor have I ever been to confession, and technically, I’m not even worthy of receiving communion. Hearing about this article, along with living with the Catholic church’s stance on gay marriage and birth control, is just another decisive reason for me to walk away from the religion I was baptized into. I do believe in God, and I would like to think I’m more than just God’s “Great Cosmic Joke,” but if I ever want to seek some sort of truth and understanding, or even become part of a church group, like my Mom keeps suggesting to me, it’s not going to happen in Catholicism. I don’t think I can ever return to a church that would wish me dead rather than accept me.)

And then, I read up on a sort of closure to the sad tale of LA Times sports columnist Mike Penner, or as he was known briefly, Christine Daniels, in two articles in LA Weekly. (here and here.) My eyes were watering up by the time I got to the end.

Why the hell is the path so damned difficult and filled with misunderstanding and heartbreak, and other issues that can steer us towards choosing to give up, or die, rather than stand up and fight to make our way to live our lives as we wish to do?

I’ll have more to say about this, after I rest, and collect my thoughts. (And, maybe I’ll try to spread the word about this site – I’d love to hear from actual human beings, rather than the fucking spambots I’ve been dealing with.) Yes – I live, and I think, and I write. On occasion, I’ll post, and not always about makeup, clothes, and all the girly things that I seem to like, and make me happy from time to time. Life isn’t always sugar and rainbows, but then, if it was, then it wouldn’t be life, would it?

Stay tuned, friends…

#28 – Slave To The Call Of The LBD Once Again…

Or, to put it another way – I tripled my LBD collection with the acquisition of two Norma Kamali sleeveless jersey dresses – one knee-length shirred column dress, and one racerback maxi-dress, for $5 each, both on clearance at Wal-Mart, on my way home from spending an evening out in Sacramento, CA (Caught another live “shadowcast” performance of Repo! The Genetic Opera up at the Colonial Theatre in South Sacramento’s Oak Park neighborhood. ^_^; )

Pictures are here…

#25 – A Few More Steps (Or: A Few More Miles…)

Just a few words to say while I wait for my latest photos to upload to Flickr…

After dinner, and a few replies to Bree, a girl I know in Alabama, I was feeling a bit tired after watching “Mad Men” after dinner, so I decided to get some fresh air before it got too late.

At times over the last few months, I have gone out at night dressed up, and drove around the area in my car. It’s sort of progress, though your car is an extension of your home. (Hey, I’m not the only one who’s gone out driving en femme.) – This time, I decided to give myself a little challenge. I wanted to see if I could work the brake and gas pedals while wearing my 3″ heels. After a quick refresher tutorial on walking in heels, (Thanks, YouTube! ^_^; I’m making progress – The keys are to remember: heel-toe, heel-toe, start out slow, don’t keep the knees stiff, don’t make the thighs do the work, chest out and up, stomach in (Work those abs! It helps!) – I’m a bit more confident and less prone to stumbling, but I still need work, and of course, refinement of my walk.) it was out to the car, getting out of the garage, down the street, and off around the city.

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#23 – At Least I Seem To Pass On Social Networks…

I have a Facebook of my own, of course, as part of my strategy to be all over the place online as Julie Anne. ^_^;

Today, I’ve achieved a bit of happiness, or at least it’s reason to make me laugh with contentment. I’m winding up a discussion with a friend of mine from Australia, as she’s acquiring a MacBook Pro. Between herself, myself, and the others joining in on the thread, there’s a lot of computer talk, and of course, the perceived image of Mac users. (Hey, she’s getting it for her graphic design job!)

I’m taking it as a compliment from one of the folks, who stated, “…is it wrong that I’m a little turned on by all the XXs talking OSs and hardware?” ^_^;

Now, if only I can pass in person, as well as online. ^_^;

#22 – “You Want Shoes? We GOT Shoes!” (Prelude To More Photos This Weekend!)

“Hey, look what I found– OW, MY KNEE!!”

Reebok Freestyle Hi 25th Anniversary - Delicate Sheen (1) Reebok Freestyle Hi 25th Anniversary - Delicate Sheen (2) Reebok Freestyle Hi 25th Anniversary - Metallic Sheen (1) Reebok Freestyle Hi 25th Anniversary - Metallic Sheen (2)


“By da’ Radio Sha’k next to tha tall build’n…” ^_^;

What, you’re kidding me! No one remembers that sketch from Conan O’Brien’s Late Night show?  – I think it’s still here – http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S2v_6D0UQbU

Nope, I didn’t forget about my Flickr, in fact, I’m going to have a few days, and a dare for myself. Details and new photos (and hopefully outfits you haven’t seen) coming! I need to get some supplies for the next few days. ^_^; (Sorry, kids – These shoes are not for sale!)

#20 – If You Could Undergo a “Transformation”… (“Classic” Julie Anne)

(Dear Readers: This is a public repost of an entry I posted to a private group I initially posted my pictures to on my Flickr, back around late April/early May 2010, before I became brave enough to post pictures of myself in entirety publicly on Flickr. I still maintain the group, and it’s where some of the not-quite ready for prime-time pictures go. I owe the people I initially invited there my most sincere gratitude, because, if it wasn’t for their support, I wouldn’t be here today, either posting public photos of myself dressed up on Flickr, or even maintaining this site. Brankingston12, DJ Bridget, Francine, and Gordon – Everything I am today, I owe to each of you!)

“And Now, Our Feature Presentation…” (Originally posted on “My Time To Shine” private group on Flickr on April 25, 2010, at around 3:53 AM PDT.)

If you could undergo a “transformation”… And by transformation, I’m not talking about your own makeup/clothing/wig ritual, or going to a professional service, but physically transforming, by magic, science, or some other method?

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#17 – For Further Clarification…

A few more words after such a very long post. Yes, I can write, and at times, I may write too much. That’s just how I am, whether I’m wearing mens’ jockey briefs, jeans, and a “guy” t-shirt, and my current out-of-control “semi-mullet” hair, or if I’m dressed to the nines in my little black dress, black tights and 3″ heels, my favorite fashion jewelry, my nice new wig, and my finest makeup, while writing this. (I’m not telling. ^_-;)

Anyway, the clarification – I am committed to the journey – I made a promise to myself – I will not purge, ever. I may sell or donate stuff I’m not interested in or that doesn’t fit me, I may change with the times and how I recreate my body, but I am here, and I am here to stay for as long as I can. I’m sure in time, I will ease down, perhaps to 3 or so updates a week, and get into a place where I’m more real, but I have a feeling that I’ll still want to be a boy as often as I want to be a girl.

No matter where the journey takes me, as long as it’s what I want, that’s what matters. I can’t guarantee how long I’ll do this, but I’m putting my heart and soul into this. Perhaps this is more meaningful than anything I’ve ever done over the last 15 or so years since I was unleashed onto the internet.

xoxo, as always…
— Julie Anne ^_^