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#100 (What’s So Special About It, Anyway?)

… Actually, a lot, in fact, so much, that instead of making one big, long post that will probably take me about an hour or more to put together, I’m going to go with a series of little posts, updating and bring people up to speed on what my world’s been like since the end of June, 2011 through now.

Yes, this is blog post #100 – 100 is a special anniversary (and usually something ground-shaking, as in episode #100 of Criminal Minds)

The bad news is, I’m still out of work, and my COBRA benefits have been yanked out from under me three months early, thanks to my previous employer shutting down operations completely.

The good news is, I’m continuing to take small (though somewhat imperceptible) steps to get my life reorganized, and of course, express myself, even if only being a part-time girl, but I am getting out there, at home, at restaurants, the gas station, the mall, the grocery store, wherever I can, blending in, and just being a woman like any other, out in the world.

Stay tuned – I will fill you in, but I wanted to break this “writers’ block,” and just say what I need to say, before things backlog any further than they’ve become.

Yes, I’m alive, I’m somewhat happier than I’ve been in previous months, and I have a general idea of what I need to do — I just need to get out there and to it.
It’s all about staying alive, healthy, active, and focused.

(Oh, I have tales to tell about where I’ve been, and photos to post – Some of them have been posted on Flickr and Facebook, and elsewhere!)

Stay tuned, darlings! ^_^;

#94 – Stay Tuned – More Updates Coming…

About three months or so of stuff to cover, including some more steps in my journey over the last three weekends in a row.

In short:

May 21: Went out to a park on a picnic with “mai gurlz”, and then to a solo journey to a nearby mall in Sacramento, CA for an hour of browsing.
May 28: Out and about as myself at FanimeCon 2011 in downtown San Jose – in casual wear (a cute top, jeans, and my long wool coat – It rained a bit) during the afternoon and early evening, then formal wear (my favorite LBD, opera-length gloves, dressed to the nines!) for Rocky Horror Picture Show – Donig the Time Warp in 3.5-inch heels, and not twisting an ankle in the process! ^_^;
June 4th: Out all day long for Sacramento Pride, including browsing around nearby Downtown Plaza and Old Sacramento.

Longer write-ups are on the way… I will make the time, and there’s more stuff on my mind I need to blog about here.

#91 – Backtracking: My Trip To Dress Barn (March 26, 2011)

Catching up again, as always – Let’s start out with one of my most recent events, shall we?

March 26, 2011 was my first time out shopping as myself, to a private after-hours shopping event, hosted by Dress Barn, and members of the River City Gems, the TG/CD group in Sacramento, CA, that I’m a member of.

To tell you the truth, even now, I’m deathly afraid of going out as Julie Anne to public places, especially by myself – Mainly for fear of getting “read”. (I guess I just have to assume it’s going to happen, and work hard on not calling too much attention to myself, because, inevitably, I’m going to have to prepare myself for the eventuality of going out in public, not in the company of other TG folks.) – Most of my shopping up to this point, I’ve done in boy-mode. Perhaps I’m making too big of a deal of this than I really should. It seem, the more I get out there, and the more I research, and the more people I talk to, a lot of mainstream retail places, primarily Dress Barn, Lane Bryant, Sephora, MAC, and a few other places are TG-friendly, usually mandated by a company-wide policy.

Maybe it’s a good thing, because people like us, especially those of us who are part-time girls, or who are just beginning to take the steps to transition, are benefiting the U.S. economy — twice! ^_^;

Continue reading #91 – Backtracking: My Trip To Dress Barn (March 26, 2011)

#89 – Let’s Go Back In Time… (The “Dark Ages” – 1994/1995…)

And I’m on the “real” internet for the first time. (Not Prodigy’s WWW-proxy version of it, not America Online, not even Delphi’s text-based representation – Yes, I was on Delphi, CompuServe, AOL, Prodigy, even GEnie – You name the serve, I was on it, but that’s another story that’s not even appropriate for here – This is about the proto-genesis of Julie Anne Morgan, ok? ^_-;) – I was on Netcom (which became Mindspring, then Earthlink.) – Netcom, which was headquartered in San Jose, CA in the mid 1990s.

You get curious, you wander, and you find out things – It was at this time I found the first few sites out there, including Melanie Anne Phillips’ initial chronicles of her journey, and her voice lessons. (Her voice blew me away when I heard it.) – I also found the TG newsgroups on Usenet. That was an experience that more or less drove me back into hiding – The old familiar “Trannier-than-thou” attitude was quite prevalent on there. I wasn’t one for hanging out, debating on newsgroups, forums, or bulletin boards, debating or nitpicking over little things, needing to prove I was right, and they were wrong, or finding it necessary to have the last word. I’m not like that today, either. I knew my limits, and I didn’t want to ever have to deal with having my ass handed to me, or getting flamed. That’s also why I don’t participate on forums much to this day, even in PINKessence. (One of my friends on there has left PE recently, because of some unfortunate squabbles there. I miss her. ;_; )

Continue reading #89 – Let’s Go Back In Time… (The “Dark Ages” – 1994/1995…)

#88 – A Meeting That Wasn’t One… (“Thank You…”)

(This is one of the blog entries I had to get out and post. As promised, there are earlier stories over the last two months that needs to be posted.)

Back in the summer of 2009, there was a young man (the term “young” being a figurative one – Though he continued to age with each passing year, he never really completely grew up.), who, in spite of having a job where he was making enough to just barely pay the bills, provide for his mainstream hobbies, and of course, have friends who shared that common interest, there was a secret he kept hidden from just about everyone who knew him.

As you may have figured out, that young man was me, in the last vestiges of what is rapidly becoming a “past life.”

The young man, in doing some searches via Google, came across a series of photos of a young lady in a schoolgirl outfit. Upon closer inspection of her Flickr photostream, that look was only one of about a hundred different looks, and she had thousands of followers and admirers.

Continue reading #88 – A Meeting That Wasn’t One… (“Thank You…”)

#87 – “Wow, I Thought You Abandoned This Site…” ^_^;

For lack of a better title – I’ve been quiet on here for just over two months, yet, I’ve been doing lots of activity during that time – Social outings with the River City Gems up in Sacramento, CA, things with other friends, going to school, looking for work, and starting up a program on Rainbow Mix Radio. (Or, more accurately, my “twin brother” has. ^_^; )

Granted, I haven’t had a shortage of anything to say, I just haven’t collected my thoughts, and set aside time to get it written. I’ll spend the next few days and weeks making up for that. Hopefully I’ll remember the more interesting things over the last eight weeks or so.

Stay tuned, space travellers! ^_-;

#86 – Interlude: Taking That Leap of Faith (Though I Fight My Own Doubts)

Here’s something to break a pattern: This is an entry that’s decidedly not about new pictures, or about my progress on my journey, for that matter.

I am driven to move forward; To prepare myself for being out on my own, to be able to fend for myself, to find someone to (hopefully) spend the rest of my life with, to be able to actually feel that I’m living, and not just taking up space, and accumulating stuff that won’t be of use to me when I’m gone from this world.

The Big Question: How to get from point A to point Z, and, of course, all the steps in between.

Continue reading #86 – Interlude: Taking That Leap of Faith (Though I Fight My Own Doubts)

#81 – And So, What A Year I’ve Had…

A year ago at this time, I began the process of coming out, and coming to terms with the feminine side of me. I’ve been trying to it for over 25 years, but circumstances in 2009 had me rethink and revisit what I had kept hidden away…

Continue reading #81 – And So, What A Year I’ve Had…

#80 – Now That I Know I Have An Audience…

… No matter how small it is (for now), I’d better write something here a few times a week, no matter how brief it may be. Pictures, perhaps? I do have new pictures over on my Flickr! Adventures from going out, or taking even more steps towards going out on my own as Julie Anne mainstream? (Still in the works for 2011!)

Expect more of what I’ve done here, hopefully a bit more focused. For now, I’ll be updating from the road for the next few days, but always working towards my eventual goal – Either being a part time girl out in the mainstream, or perhaps going full-time, either non-op, or pre-op towards full transition.

There is no deadline. The goal is a moving, variable target. What matters most is that I’m on the journey, even it it doesn’t seem like I’m making much progress.

Hugs and kisses! ^_^

(P.S.: Hi, Kara and Kris! ^_^; )