#109 – OMG, Julie Can Draw! (OMG, Did She Draw Who I Thought She Drew?)

Happy Birthday, dj bridget!

An original sketch I did for the incredibly talented (but not quite as visible over the internet as she was about a decade earlier) dj bridget, for her birthday this past Thursday.

The toughest part, other than going for a realistic interpretation of one of her photos, was choosing which photo out of hundreds to base the sketch off of.

I stumbled across her Flickr (It’s gone now ;_; ) in June of 2009, and, that was the “tipping point” that made me realize I was lying to myself by continuing to deny an important part of myself… That I am transgender, and twenty-seven years of hiding was essentially only a partial existence, and essentially “living death” for me.

I’ve come out to a few, I’m getting out in public, either with other girls, close friends, or on my own, and I’ve made quite a bit of progress in about 18 months.

But, if things didn’t happen, or I didn’t get curious back in the summer of 2009, I’d probably still be in hiding.

Who knows what my life would be like if I came to my senses a decade earlier.

This is only a small way I know of of saying “thanks” to someone who played a small, yet significant part in my ongoing rebirth. ^_^

#107 – Everytime You Go Away (You Take A Piece Of Me With You)

(#107 in a limited-edition series! Collect them all – Yes, I used a Paul Young song title for the title of this post… Daryl Hall wrote it, Hall and Oates performed it before Paul Young covered it)

This is mirrored from a post I just send out on my Facebook (a public-viewable post) – and is being mirrored to PINKessence as well.

For every person on here who removed their Facebok account, and leaves their circle, I have to ask myself “Was our friendship real?” – “Are we all just easily discardable?”

And yes, I am aware of this saying:
“When people walk away from you, let them go. Your destiny is never tied to anyone who leaves you, and it doesn’t mean they’re bad people. It just means that their part in your story is over.”
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#106 – Quick Update (Back Out Of The Rabbit Hole For A Bit)

(#106 for those keeping track. ^_^; )

I never did mention that I saw Jack & Jill at a local theater – as myself. (Not giving a damn what others thought of me.) I had fun, and never “broke character” the whole time through. (The film started a bit slow, but picked up – I’d say it’s up there, at least a somewhere behind The Wedding Singer – I never did bother to see The Waterboy, or Happy Gilmore, Big Daddy, or even 50 First Dates. – I saw Punch-Drunk Love when it came out years ago, but that was a film directed by one of my favorite directors (love him or hate him), P.T. Anderson. (Boogie Nights, Magnolia, There Will Be Blood)

And, I just realized, as I was getting my outfit ready for this coming Saturday (Going to the Super Toy Show in San Jose!), that it’s the exact same outfit I wore to the movies, and to the mall beforehand. (Including dinner at BJ’s – another successful night out as myself, including small talk with one of the ladies showing me to my booth. ^_^; )

Photo catch-up coming soon from my exciting (at least for me) November, including a lot of me time. ^_^;

I am continuing to smile, even in tough times – I will not be denied, forced back into the closet, or give up fighting for what I want – the chance to be out on my own, as myself, living my life, and reinventing myself as the person I was meant to be.