Here’s something to break a pattern: This is an entry that’s decidedly not about new pictures, or about my progress on my journey, for that matter.
I am driven to move forward; To prepare myself for being out on my own, to be able to fend for myself, to find someone to (hopefully) spend the rest of my life with, to be able to actually feel that I’m living, and not just taking up space, and accumulating stuff that won’t be of use to me when I’m gone from this world.
The Big Question: How to get from point A to point Z, and, of course, all the steps in between.
Sometimes, there are things you just have to do, they may not make sense to others, but you have to do them regardless.
Sometimes, you just have to take that leap of faith.
I have had to do just that, on several occasions, over the past year and a half. Sure, I’m scared, and I worry about the consequences, or if I can actually see whatever I want to do all the way to its conclusion, but I know I have to sometimes, just say, Fuck It,” and just jump in.
And so, I do, and I seem to survive, to take on the next challenge, or the next stage of the journey.
Get ready for some more adventures in the next few days…
I am "29 and holding," (I refuse to act my age!) I'm a semi-closeted tgirl, and it seems I'm finding a lot of people out there like me. (Just more adventurous, experienced, and so on and so forth.) ^_^; - I guess this *is* my much-celebrated "mid-life crisis."
I used to live in the Dark Center Of The Universe, a.k.a. somewhere in the middle of California. Forgive me if I'm not too generous with details right now. Let's just say that not too many people out there know about me. (Not even close family or friends. I'm nowhere near ready for coming out as of yet.)
'm a "part time" girl, having crossdressed on and off for over 25 years, still semi-closeted, but making gradual progress, especially in the last few years.
For the longest part of my life, it's always been something I've been ashamed of, due to my being caught by my parents quite a few times in my teens, but the urges have never went away. Fortunately, through making contact with others on the internet, and exploring online resources, I've started to come to terms with discovering who I am, and realizing it's not something to be ashamed of, and more importantly, that I'm not alone.
I've made a few contacts and friends out there, and am making progress bit by bit, getting more courageous, but always working on my image, confidence, outfits, and appearance. I still consider myself not quite passable, or ready for prime time, but the important thing is that a door was reopened to me that I thought was closed forever.
I've dedicated the rest of my life to finding out who I am, and learning to love and accept myself, no matter what the outcome. Given enough time and support from others, I'm sure I'll blossom quite well.
My guiding principle is - "It's My Time To Shine."
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